best of both worlds..

love life's been better for me..

thank you almighty..

for empowerin' me and dear..

with the patience and strength..

we practically spent everyday together..

this past week..

as we prepare ourselves for our big weekend in april..

money saved.. money spent..

deposits here and there..

but no worries..

no regrets here..

except the fact..

i did not meet any of the guys the whole week..

kinda miss them..

kinda pissed too..

i don't know why..

guess i need closure..

i know i ain't miley cyrus or hannah montana..

can't have the best of both worlds..

like them or is it her?..

damn bitches..

next project in line..

print those darn weddin' cards..

give that rope a tug..

a week with no government in office..
can sometimes take its toll on you..
you get lazier..
and you have to create your own sense of direction..

there are days i just got out of office earlier..
citin' i need to go to stores if queried..
but in actual fact i went home..
straight..

honey's workin' nite shift..
most days this week..
i wanted to meet the bromance gang..
but most are tied up with work..

thank god yat got some free time to spare..
coz wed i totally didn't go to office..
took a gamble..
and watched sherlock holmes at causeway..

at least two others too made the effort..
to make company with me..
despite their busy schedules..
but one remained illusive..

which is quite disheartenin'..
but i guess it's time to start lettin' go..
bros are forever..
but it won't be the same as before after april..

rest assured..
i can't wait to embark on a new chapter in my life..
with my future wife..
new episodes.. new challenges..

yes it's time for us to let each other go..
but bros..
once in a while let's give that rope a slight tug..
and we'll still be there for each other..

it's a first..

wow.. it's a first..
the first in 14 years..
i missed watchin' a.j.l last nite..

a.j.l?..
it's short for anugerah juara lagu..
that malay song competition on tv3..
and i actually missed it.. on purpose..

always have been an avid fan..
watched it live every year without fail..
i would even go to the extent..
and record it on vhs..

lame you say of me?..
well.. i told ya i was weird..
but then when bros asked to meet..
to hell with that competition..
furthermore the songs contestin' now are mostly crap..

now to more important things my life..
i feel better now dear..
thanks..

ramzi's weddin' done with..
who's next?..

gosh.. mine!!!..

cirque du freak..

i really wanted to be alone today..

my mind was in shambles..

but idi called..

wanna meet and chill..

as if he could sense i'm in trouble..

a 12-year old brotherhood itch you might say..

i couldn't refuse him..

being married and all..

and expectin' his second daughter anytime soon..

he still had a bit of time for a brother..

love the guy to death..

ironically we ain't that close back in school..

we grew closer only after that..

told him my troubles..

the thing about idi..

he's very very open-minded..

very..

he really understood..

the shitholes i'm goin' thru right now..

not only the obvious ones..

but the hidden ones as well..

my undesirable desires..

caught the vampire's assistant as well..

it was about vampires (like duh)..

and freaks..

was chillin' but funny..

quite a cool flick..

thank god i'm not a freak..

maybe partially..

idi knows..

but it didn't freak him out..

no pun intended..