second malay post..

tiada erti aku merindu..

jika kau tak ingin bertemu..

apa gunanya bercinta..

di dalam kepura-puraan..

yang lafaz cinta..

hanya bibir..

namun diri tak seringnya hadir..

di saat engkau diperlukan..

aku hampa..

uninvited..

like anyone would be..

you are flattered by my fascination of you..

like any hot blooded woman..

you have simply wanted an object to crave..

but me.. i'm not allowed..

i'm uninvited..

an unfortunate slight..

like any uncharted territory..

you are greatly intriguing..

you speak of my love like..

you have experienced love like mine before..

but this is not allowed..

i'm uninvited..

an unfortunate slight..

i don't think you unworthy..

i need a moment to deliberate..

a tale of two games..

saturday's game was crap..
but not the time spent though..

sunday's game was even crappier..
but not the time spent though..

is there a third game?..
feels like it..
and it seems i'm leadin'..

whatever the final score turns out to be..
don't blame me..

fool again..

you are such a fool..
but the it takes a fool to fool another..
so that makes us bigger fools then..

when you needed help..
we sheltered..
we protected..
but what do we get in return?..

you slapped us hard with shit..
the same shit he slapped you with..
and you returned to him..
willin' to forgive him..

but you can't shrug off..
the few faults of your own flesh and blood..
who had raised you..
with loving care and concern..

and stop givin' that lame excuse..
again and again..
i get sick listenin' to that..

if you want precious..
to start callin' you and him..
what you so much desire..
then start acting like one..

will the real aminurashid please stand up?..

fat..
mocked..
hair problems..
sexuality issues..
low self-confidence..
battered morale..
nerve-wreckin' worries..
uninvited stress..

this is not the aminurashid i used to know..

an ol' metallica classic..

we have each other..
and nothin' else matters..

happy birthday bro..

and yes bro.. i love you too..