the end again..

31 dec '08..
was at the ol' jp store..

workin' with the guys..
past by midnight and it was '09..

it was ok though..
cos we had some funny moments in store that nite..

now.. new year..
new problems..

thanks 2009..
you've been both good and bad to me..

31 dec '09..
i'm gettin' outta here..

ouch..

you may be a good boss.. buddy.. etc..

but not a good fiance..

ouch baby..

the stone cold friend..

i have a friend..
he's emotionally unstable right now..
he seems really depressed..
whatever smiles or cheers you see on his face..
are all merely facades now..

he should be feelin'very happy and delighted now..
cos his big day's comin' soon..
but unfortunately it doesn't seem like it..
he's short of cash..
and he's tryin' very hard to make ends meet..
howver deep down inside..
he knows that whatever dough he can get his hands on to save..
it's still not enough..
with his big day loomin' near..
he's really freakin' out..

and to top that..
his lover feels that the matrimony's gonna be a fluke.. seriously..
they really love each other..
but she implied that she doesn't have the faith and confidence in him..
to lead her and the family..
she always does this when she gets insecure..
and irritatin' for that matter..
it's the same ol' shit for my friend..
he had heard this crap countless times..
and finally.. it got my friend thinkin'..
maybe she's right after all..

and this friend of mine..
has a certain personal issue..
he has strong feelings for someone else..
and it's kinda funny.. and queer..
it has been killin' him inside for a long time..
but he doesn't want to jeopardize the bond and proximity..
he has with HER..
but one day he couldn't take it anymore..
he decided to be expressive..
SHE didn't take it too well..
it freaked HER out..
although nothin' happened..

he apologized and SHE's ok with that..
but he feels that from that day on..
it's not goin' to be the same as before anymore..
and it seems like it..
although SHE tried to convince him..
that everythin' is still as it was and always been..
but my friend doesn't feel that way..
he feels neglected lately..
unless SHE does somethin' to prove him wrong..

and my friend is damn worried..
that he can't perform..
he thinks that everythin' on him..
is physically challenged..
he really hates his outlook right now..
from head to toe..
and he relishes one of the deadly sins..
he's sort of a crack addict..

pity the guy..
he's really confused right now..
he has been thinkin' alot lately..
and it seems nothin' can help him..
except for himself..
and i hate myself for not being able to help him either..

i cited to my friend..
that he should do the stone cold act..
in 2002 stone cold walked out from the best job in the world..
cos he had personal probs and needed to ease his mind..
it got people criticizin' and mockin' him..
for walkin' out prematurely..

and my friend replied..
never say never..

taboo tuesday..

time is of the essence for me..

if you guys think i do trainin' for fun..

then you are damn wrong

i tried to comprehend and understand..

each and every situation..

but with 6 different stores..

come 6 different pickled situations..

i didn't realize it will snowball..

into one big shit..

until it gets smeared on my pretty face..

i'm not askin' for anyone's pity..

just be considerate..

and think of those who made the effort..

if you don't push them..

who will?..

and brush up on thou management skills..

if you think that i don't understand..

cos i'm not in your shoes..

that's where you are wrong..

cos hey.. i was there before too..

taboo tuesday indeed..

can't wait for my new surprise tomorrow..

big mistake..

bad move amin..
nice goin'..
sorry man..
but glad we are still ok..

happy 15th birthday adik..

this sicko has nothin'..

don't make me close..

one more door..

i don't want to hurt anymore..

stay in my arms if you dare..
or must i imagine you there..
don't walk away from me..

i have nothin'.. nothin'.. nothin'..
if i don't have you..

b.b did it again..
but it's ok.. you're sick..
there goes my desire..

crap..
got my first parkin' summons this mornin'..
crappy woodlands p.o..
now the question is..
how to evade away from dad..
when the letter comes?..

and i think i'm gettin' sick in the brain..
sicko..

love the great..

to me..
this is the best duet love song..
from the malay music industry..
of all times..

no disrespect to other notable talents..
and other great love songs..
but the message from this song is straightforward..
and easy to comprehend..

if only (my) love life..
can be this simple and romantic..
as the song suggests..
but then again.. gotta be thankful..

and a quick shoutout to my bro..
girls always have the wrong impression..
don't play with troubled waters..
but i guess we are in the same boat dude..

can i dedicate this classic to another love in my life?..

oh no.. shades of adam in the makin'..

but this urge is killin' me..

so close yesterday nite..
when we ate together..
well that's what they say..
so close.. yet so far..

i will kiss you one day..

with honey away..
i'm kinda lonely lately..
well.. bro's gerl was away too..
so it's ideal for us..
to meet and chill over the weekend..
our first weekend since months..
cos we have always been meetin' on weeknights..

watched ninja assassin at bugis together..
gory and violent..
for a moment i thought..
i was watchin' another saw movie..
it was not bad..

well..
it was another bromance moment..
haha..

it will happen one day..
i hope you will be ok with it b.b..

adam dared..

amen?..

bromance rules..

it's freakin' december already..
although it's a few days into the month..
i'll know that this december.. this christmas..
won't be as excitin' and memorable..
as last december..
jurong point..
nite stacks..
new found bros..
love it all..

went for supper this past fri nite..
at lau pa sat..
dhaz mooted the idea..
the usual gang was down with dat..
laughter and fun..
filled the clear nite..
from irritating jokes..
to embarrassin' moments being recalled..
to peelin' prawn shells for the dearest..

it was an awesome get-together..

oh.. and lan has hit the big 3..

and he got punked the next nite..
shrinkwrapped and dirtied..
courtesy of his tm staffs..

bro told me..
he had discarded a number of his old friends..
mostly those from school..
to me it's quite sad actually..
but sometimes it can't be helped..

at present..
i've too grown distant..
from the usual suspects from school or n.s..
we were like brothers..
a brotherhood of some sort..
but not any longer now..
except for a few..
whom i'm still close with..

but the thought of..
"buang kawan"..
simply put..
it's not me..
but realistically speakin'..
not realizin' it..
it had already happened..

i guess my next challenge..
would be how not to discard..
this new batch of bros i have..
with some way younger than me..

we are bounded to go our separate ways..
sooner or later..
stay as bros..
not from bros to friends..
then from friends to acquaintances..

yah bro..
'jiwa' is the word..
so is grease..

bromance still rules..

let's make it work a lifetime..
our lifetime..