the stone cold friend..

i have a friend..
he's emotionally unstable right now..
he seems really depressed..
whatever smiles or cheers you see on his face..
are all merely facades now..

he should be feelin'very happy and delighted now..
cos his big day's comin' soon..
but unfortunately it doesn't seem like it..
he's short of cash..
and he's tryin' very hard to make ends meet..
howver deep down inside..
he knows that whatever dough he can get his hands on to save..
it's still not enough..
with his big day loomin' near..
he's really freakin' out..

and to top that..
his lover feels that the matrimony's gonna be a fluke.. seriously..
they really love each other..
but she implied that she doesn't have the faith and confidence in him..
to lead her and the family..
she always does this when she gets insecure..
and irritatin' for that matter..
it's the same ol' shit for my friend..
he had heard this crap countless times..
and finally.. it got my friend thinkin'..
maybe she's right after all..

and this friend of mine..
has a certain personal issue..
he has strong feelings for someone else..
and it's kinda funny.. and queer..
it has been killin' him inside for a long time..
but he doesn't want to jeopardize the bond and proximity..
he has with HER..
but one day he couldn't take it anymore..
he decided to be expressive..
SHE didn't take it too well..
it freaked HER out..
although nothin' happened..

he apologized and SHE's ok with that..
but he feels that from that day on..
it's not goin' to be the same as before anymore..
and it seems like it..
although SHE tried to convince him..
that everythin' is still as it was and always been..
but my friend doesn't feel that way..
he feels neglected lately..
unless SHE does somethin' to prove him wrong..

and my friend is damn worried..
that he can't perform..
he thinks that everythin' on him..
is physically challenged..
he really hates his outlook right now..
from head to toe..
and he relishes one of the deadly sins..
he's sort of a crack addict..

pity the guy..
he's really confused right now..
he has been thinkin' alot lately..
and it seems nothin' can help him..
except for himself..
and i hate myself for not being able to help him either..

i cited to my friend..
that he should do the stone cold act..
in 2002 stone cold walked out from the best job in the world..
cos he had personal probs and needed to ease his mind..
it got people criticizin' and mockin' him..
for walkin' out prematurely..

and my friend replied..
never say never..