lust anniversary..

lust week..

10 years on..

wow..

nuff said..

: (

my apology..

i'm very sorry.. : (

the ugly brother..

i don't know what got into me..
i was like a ragin' bull..
and baby afirah was my victim..

really hated myself..
went totally berserk..
i was a lunatic..

and what's the root?
it was 10.15pm..
and she wasn't done with her homework..

it was past her bedtime..
and i was haranguin' her like mad..
she could have jizzed in her pants..

after the whole debacle..
i couldn't believe it just happened..
like after so long..

i guess it was anger.. frustration..
stress and all..
being fenced up too long inside..

i thanked god i didn't even touch her..
i never want to be that ugly again..
especially to her..

i'm sorry afirah..
i still love you ok..

nothin' can spoil this day for you bro..

i have never been proud of you in my entire life younger bro..
i'm so happy that you have achieved your goal..
no words can express how i feel right now..
i'm glad that you shared your happiness and success with me..

though i'm a bit worried..
with regards to your personal safety..
and the realities of ridin'..
but the ecstasy of you passin' still beats everythin'..

but i know you won't disappoint me bro..
promise me you'll take care of yourself..

today is your day..
don't let anythin' else spoil it..

you deserved it..
you earned it..
well done younger brother..
i'm very proud and happy for you..