honeyless nights..

it actually depresses me that i can't spend weekend nights like these alone with honey.. as a matter of fact..weeknights are no different too.. we don't do things what normal lovin' couples do.. i'm not askin' for anythin' extrreme.. just the basic formalities.. takin' pictures together (we do take but we're always in 'sedia!' positions in the pix.. wth?).. making stupid silly faces in our pictures.. watchin' movies (without the kids).. relaxin' on the beach together.. night cyclin' maybe.. i'm not askin' for somethin' that's overboard.. i tried reasonin' with honey but she'd say again and again.. "how many times must i say to you".. "u still don't understand eh".. too conformed.. joyless.. monotonous.. stagnant.. and it's killin' me.. there's a yoke on my back..

but all's not lost.. i learnt somethin' new from our non-stop messages since yesterday mornin'..

:-*

my new source of salvation and comfort..

so i was bored on sat (besides the fact i really enjoyed messagin' her the whole day).. and askin' honey out was pointless as she needs to be back home by 6pm every sat.. i really wanted to go out and chill but had no company.. the usual suspects were workin'.. and i was refrainin' from callin' the prominent one too.. so i decided to call an old friend and we met.. wan.. or steiner.. teletubby.. pengster.. bubblator.. are some of his aliases.. he was freakin' late but as usual it didn't matter to me.. after dinner we chilled outside ngee ann city.. thank god the heavy downpour stopped a few hours before.. we wanted to buy drinks at the 7/11 kiosk outside ngee ann city but to our dismay.. the queue was damn long as if they were givin' away free hello kitty collectibles.. and wan being a camel that he is was too thirsty.. he couldn't take it anymore and chose to buy lime juice at old chang kee.. and it was super sour.. haha..

wan gave me fresh impetus about my current situation.. he's a good friend but he doesn't show it.. starngely he reminded me of bucky in a good way of coz.. bucky?.. who's bucky?.. oh it's my new nick for yan.. haha.. anyway decided to wait for bucky to finish work so that we could go home together.. boy i really missed orchard nite life.. and i wanted honey to be there with me.. but then it ain't gonna happen.. but still i was glad wan accompanied me the whole evenin'..

currently can't stop listening to siti nurhaliza.. "bicara manis menghiris kalbu".. dedicated to honey..

we still messaged each other the whole of today.. and we're gonna meet soon.. my most favourite received message over the two days:

"dun tempt me"